Introduction

I've been told that writing is supposedly cathartic. We'll see how this goes. I am a student at University at this point, almost to my fourth year studying Bilingual Education. I have a dog that means the world to me, and he goes to college with me since I don't live on campus. In the beginning of the year, I had recently been dumped by my boyfriend of five years. We started to date in my junior year of high school, he was everything to me. We had difficulties with what each of us wanted in life, but I was sadly willing to change anything for him for the longest time. It wasn't until then that I was finally able to see that I was the only one willing to change for the sake of the relationship. The sad thing is, most of our 'friends' considered themselves more his friends than mine. So now I have lost almost all most my friends that I have made in college, so even though I have been in the city for three years I now have very few friends. Now I am pretty much alone, with my dog as a constant companion. So this is a year of changes, and I am going to document the recovery process. Before the breakup, I had been screened for depression. I had told him about it at about the time of the breakup, but he didn't seem to take my need for help with this into consideration. He said he felt like crap for what he was thinking, but he still left me for a taller, bustier, and prettier girl. My family is there for me, but only my father knows that I have depression. So as of right now, my depression has been steadily there, and the ache I feel comes and goes. I am going to move on someday, but it is definitely going to take me a long time. This is enough of an introduction for now, hopefully I will remember to continue with this.